Thursday, June 10, 2010

Unknown,Uncertainty,Unpleasant,Undeniable....

May,June which follow by July thats the lifespan of my freaking industrial training;quote from Grey's series 'Intern is the lowest in the freaking food chain" some prefer to stay out of trouble if they have no freedom they will rust their brain,blurred their vision so they can pass a day like a zombie sitting and do nothing or contrary with freedom perhaps doing their own things and having own sweet time.

For cases that is totally opposite will be either you work like dog or being dragged like a dog and your only answer is always Obey.

Nothing is hardship or torture more than mental emptiness and lack of someone that can communicate with you at the same level of mentality.

Wondering, ponder what I have achieve past this few years and possible future except a lousy result with a degree that probably without recognition is kind of pathetic and yet this is the reality. Honestly, it hurts and annoying to think about.

Thinking of wrapping my rottenness with another degree or master with extra skills but seem kind of unpractical now....

Emptiness filling inside out when thinking through I have nothing throughout my whole life and with some depressing thinking that the emptiness will follow me till eternity.